Is blissful ignorance really possible?

There is a part of me that knows all too well the goings on of the world around me yet I don't.  I am finding that the longer I live without TV the happier I am.  Don't get me wrong, we own a TV and a dvd player, you will even find a wii sitting next to the TV, but there is no cable. I used to have a converter box....I almost miss it.  Channel 2 was good at keeping me up to date about things, but as life goes, the converter box stopped working.  It has been months now and while I still miss PBS and the operas, ice skating, concerts, and such, although I am finding others ways to expand upon the knowledge and culture in my life.  Today I downloaded Voltaire to my nook and plan on spending a good amount of time reading. First thing is first--dinner and a movie with the kids.

so shut off the TV and expand your mind tonight,

Grown ups?

I want to be a piano technician, a professional violinist, a teacher, a school bus driver, a dancer(not the stripping kind), a photographer, a starving artist, a welder, a painter, a bassist, a bartender, a repo person, a bulldozer driver, a paramedic, a firefighter, an adventurer, a museam curator, a sewing wonder, a model, a designer, a printer, a pawn shop operator, a director, a crayon factory worker, a chef, a baker, an auto mechanic, a race car driver, a carpenter, a marina owner, a book store owner, and an antique dealer.
None of these in any particular order, but everytime I turn around there is something else in my head that I want to do.  It is a wonder I have made it this far in life, something tells me that with all of this I am meant to wander through life bouncing around like a pingpong ball.  There is so much I want to do, with little time to do any of it. It is not always time that binds me, money tends to be a factor in this quest as well, but if I could just narrow down things a bit I might actually find that one thing I am good at and make some cash doing it.
A person spends most of their young life being asked "What do you want to be when you grow up?" In all of those years there are plenty of ideas, thoughts, direction changes, and quests to find one's self.  Everyday I have a new thought about what I want to do with my life and I am only getting older.  It's not like I am 18 with a clear future ahead of me...I am 27 with a foggy future and a past as well. I have emotional baggage and fears. I have 2 beautiful girls to provide for. I have a ton of ambition and no goals. I also have a monkey wearing hotpants changing the channel in my brain every 3 seconds. 
When will I actually grow up and do something with myself? If I grow up does that mean that all of the fun is gone? I am what I like to call half grown now, no I don't have any grande plans or dinner parties, but I work and pay bills and do a lot of responsible things. For all of that grown up stuff there is another part of me that just wants to goof off and have fun, be spontanious, and learn something new. 
I think my next plan is to learn to weld, I really want to weld.  I want to learn to blow glass too, but we shall see what is more expensive welding or glass blowing.

Wed blues....

 

I saw this and laughed, so i posted it.  gotta work a long one today and tomorrow...maybe something interesting will happen...lol

Happy Hump Day!!!

what to do today?!

So, I am off work, and don't have a million and one things planned. I know I must head to Target to get some meds refilled, but past that i have no plan.  I may see if I can pick up the hardware to put up the shelves in the kids' room, or I may pick up the stain or paint for my sewing machine cabinet.  Decisions, decisions.  

 

This seems like a decent way to decide.  I think I may have to hunt up a penny today. I know it will be movie night and I have to make brownies for the brownie troop and a treat for the daisy troop, but those things won't take long.   Heads=kids shelves   Tails=Sewing cabinet

I will post pics later of what gets done!

Happy Tuesday! 

 

awkwardly passing time....

 

Yup, this is me. It's monday and I must go to work, kids have school, Monkey has dance, and Crankybear has appointment today.

I think carrot cake for breakfast will cheer me up.

Sunday Already

Well, of course I have to work today, but in other news....I set my clocks back last night so there wouldn't be any confusion today. I got my hair cut last night.  If i hadn't gone I would have taken the clippers to my head last night. 
So i was going to make a quick post from work yesterday, but something happened at work and we have no phones or internet.  Not only does this make it very quiet (no phone), but has also taken away my boredom be gone.  We have windows 98 at work and while I can't do much I can goof off online here or on facebook without too many issues, but for now that is all over, as well as doing any actual work.  I can't enter in any orders or even log in and out.  Oh well.  I will have to take something to occupy my time today, I did read for a good bit yesterday, but I think I might take something else to do too.

Well Monkey is begging me to make pancakes and I have had an entire cup of coffee so I guess it is time to start on the pancakes.  Enjoy some Garfield.

Daily grind...

Another day, another pot of coffee, and one hell of a long day at work ahead of me.  Let us hope that the usual idiots stay away, and the idiots above me don't make any more stupid mistakes or requests.